Different person.

What its gonna take for you to change to a different person.

I don't know, but I think I changed a lot this year. It started with a new place. Whenever I moved to any place, my behaviour changed based on people surrounding. I don't know whether it's because of surrounding or it is just me, I don't know, I couldn't find any reason. Not to brag being good or so called alim, (forgive me), frankly this year changed me a lot, I've started to perform Salah 5 times a day, and if I don't, I don't feel calm, I'm so afraid, afraid of what could happen if I die young, and I've never wanna leave house without pray. I always pray for good things to happen in my family, my parents, my sisters brothers, all muslims, and to all people who had passed away. If we don't pray for them, who's gonna pray for them? I'm not acting like I'm a good person, no. Heck no, there will always evil inside me, imperfection is me.

Yknow, I used to wear shorts, or anything that sexy, when I think about it, I feel ashamed with myself. Seriously, why did I wear things like that? I used to be okay with exposing my legs, now it's just not me anymore. Oh yea good news to share, both of my sisters are wearing hijab now, I am so happy. Could it be me, next? InsyaAllah. I don't wanna give typical malay reason like " Kenapa sibuk sangat? Kubur masing-masing @ saya tak bersedia lagi ". Instead of giving your "good manners" reason, why don't you just go for silent or InsyaAllah would be great. You're getting marvelously mature if you say something good to hear. 

May Allah bless all muslims. Have a good day lavs xx. Assalamualaikum.